Finding Hope: My Story

I hesitate to even post this because I know there are so many people who have things so much worse than I do.  Cancer, infertility, miscarriage, losing loved ones.  And I just have this dumb chronic illness that has taken over my life. I'm just weary.  I'm bone tired.  I feel like for every step forward I make I stumble ten backwards again.  I feel like a royal screw up most days.  I can't stop living in this month long crisis cycle with my health.  Every time I feel like I've got the pain or nausea managed, something else pops up.  I've had like 4 ovarian cysts rupture just this week. Nothing seems to be going right. Mostly, I feel like an already crunched up fall leaf.  Not one of the ones on the tree, still vibrant with color.  Nope, one that is on the ground, already crunched. I usually try so hard to be positive. To find the good in a person, a situation, a trial. But tonight, I'm just so weary.  I've been strugglin...

I had the great opportunity to go to Frankfurt for work and see some beautiful hidden gems in a city that is so modern.  So, enjoy some gems of a beautiful little neighborhood in an old city.

Am I the only person who struggles with goal setting? I don't even know what it is about setting goals that is so difficult for me.  I think the future just feels like some...way too far away thing. I keep setting goals every year for things I want to accomplish.  For ways that I want to change.  And then the fall rolls around and I always go...Oooooops.  Welp, guess that year of change isn't happening.  Guess that DI donation box will stay in my closet for another week.  Guess I'm not going to yoga again today. Seriously, how do you people stay motivated enough to accomplish goals?  I barely make it home and cook dinner before I need a nap.