Pain
One of the hardest parts of my life right now is the pain I'm in. So much of it is physical. Stomach pain so intense I can't sleep, nausea that stops my in my tracks, migraines and so much more. I'm finding more and more things that I can grin and bear. Most days, the pain is manageable. It doesn't last all day, it doesn't slow me down. I can do my job, I can be a loving daughter and sister, I can be a good friend. Some days, the pain sucks. It hurts and it's hard but I have to push through it because I don't have any other options. I show up where I've committed to, I find a way to make things work, and I carve out time for self care. Then, there are weeks like this week. This week, the pain is bone deep. It's brain deep. I can't find it inside of me to be positive anymore. I feel lumpy and awkward, I miss what my body was before it broke. I miss being able to wear pants and not be in pain because of a ...