that self-conscious vibe
I feel like every time I make ten strides forward with my self-confidence, I also make great tumbles backward. I spent this Saturday doing things for ME...spending time with an amazing friend, getting my hair done, learning how to flatter and fall in love with my awesome cheek bones...the list goes on. I left feeling like I could do ANYTHING! I'm AMAZING! My body is AMAZING! I'm BEAUTIFUL even when sitting in the hair chair with no makeup with that massive cape thing on because my beauty comes from INSIDE (and also from my cute cheekbones, mentioned above). And then I go to church and wish I had the fashion sense of that girl or a boyfriend like this one. I go to work and say I can be part of a photoshoot then feel like the fat friend of all of these gorgeous women. I'm sitting here at work dreading seeing these photos because I just hope and pray that me being in them didn't ruin them. Why is that? Why can't I hold on to the feeling of AWESOME that I...