when you cannot go any longer
I know, I know. It has been a long time. Trust me, if you read my journal or saw my "planner" you would understand that I am not very good at documenting my thoughts and feelings, my life experiences or even just keeping track of what I do each day. However, I have hit a point where I just need to share my experiences with living with a chronic illness. It has been a hard month. A hard year. A hard five years since I first got sick and first had to ask myself "what can I learn from this new, never-ending trial?" Honestly, this is the hardest trial I have yet to face. Harder than being a shy, lonely kid, harder than the woes of female teenage-dom, harder than broken hearts and lonely weekends. So, why is this so hard? Everyone else always thinks they have all the answers. They are sure that something else is wrong with you, that it is all in your head or that you can just do XYZ and suddenly a miracle will occur and you will be well a...