Broken

Do you ever feel broken?  Like there is something that is so obviously wrong with you that it drives others away?

That is how I've been feeling lately.  I'm not sure how to fix my own broken-ness.  How to make myself feel whole again.  

And yet, I don't need to.  We've been blessed to have a Savior who not only knows us, He knows what we need.  He knows our deepest, darkest, loneliest moments.  He knows how to bind our wounds, how to heal our broken hearts and how to help us be whole again.  

So WHAT if I feel stagnant.  If I feel broken and cannot understand why.  I have a Savior.  I have someone in my life who understands me perfectly and loves me unconditionally.  And if I can cling to that, I can make it through.  

This week I've been trying to write a talk for church on Sunday.  I'm still struggling to know which direction to take this talk, to know what the Lord would have me say to not only soothe my broken soul, but to lift other broken souls as well.  I found an amazing set of verses as I was studying the scriptures to try to understand The Atonement better.  

D&C 50:41-42
 41 Fear not, little children, for you are mine, and I have overcome the world, and you are of them that my Father hath given me;
 42 And none of them that my Father hath given me shall be lost.
We are HIS.  The Savior suffered and died so that we would not be lost.  
My goal this week is to just remember that one truth.  I am His.  He loved me enough to come and live and die to allow me a way to make it back home.  And that is why I don't have to feel broken.

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