Leaving

I've realized lately just how difficult it is to leave something behind.  I'm not just talking about forgetting to grab something before you go to work or forgetting a swimsuit when you go on vacation.

I'm talking about the gut wrenching decisions that force you to leave something behind.  The kind of life changes that make you wonder what your path through life should really be like and if it needs to be this HARD.

I hate leaving.  I like being comfortable and staying where I'm at.  But I guess my Heavenly Father knows that and likes to stretch me and make me grow in ways I didn't know were possible.

I'm no longer in Divine Comedy at BYU.  I never thought it would be so hard to leave behind something that caused so much stress and lack of sleep.  But Divine Comedy also brought along some of the best friends I've had the opportunity to have, some of the greatest spiritual experiences and some of the most fun times of my life so far.

I'm going to miss those humans.  I'm going to miss spending hours and hours to make a show happen.  I'm going to miss the late nights and the laughs.

I just hate leaving.

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  1. CJ CampbellJanuary 28, 2015 at 5:24 AM

    Leaving is the worst!

    ... which reminds me of this funny video :)
    Tim Hawkins - The Worst: http://youtu.be/2WMrefP098o

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