Not Counting Someone Else's Blessings

Today made me realize just how much time I spend counting other people's blessings instead of my own.  How often do I sit and think "wow, i wish i was married" or "i wish i had a baby" or even "i wish i had a date".

Why am I letting my life be consumed by wishes?  I finally have a job, one I think I could be really good at if I try hard enough.  I have so much good, and yet all I can see is what I think my life is lacking.

No, I'm not married.  No, I'm not a mom.  No I don't have a boyfriend and no, I don't get asked out on dates.  And yet I have some amazing friends.  I have great opportunities, and I have the opportunity to enjoy my life.

Have you ever seen White Christmas?  If not, it is time for you to crawl out from the rock you are living under and actually experience some culture.  Anyway, there is a song in White Christmas that talks about counting your blessings.  Just because I do not HAVE a blessing yet in my life, does not mean I cannot see it as a blessing.  No, i'm not worried, but I might be one day. BLESSING.  No, I don't have kids.  But I also do not have diapers to change, bottles to make, millions of loads of laundry to wash.  And one day, I will probably have the cutest, happiest babies ever.  BLESSINGS.

So I am going to try to stop counting other people's blessings, and look for my own.  Will I ever stop wishing?  Probably not.   But I will probably start seeing the ways other wishes of mine have come true.  And maybe one day, these wishes that I have that seem so far away for me will have come true...and I will have other wishes I am chasing.

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  1. JuliaJune 22, 2014 at 8:15 PM

    You're my fave and you are wonderful. Thanks for being a blessing in my life.
    I'm excited for lunch tomorrow.

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