Finding Hope: My Story

Today I am grateful for people who listen to inspiration.  There are so many people who have contacted me out of the blue.  They don't know how stressed I am today, or how little I think of myself in this moment.  And yet they reach out as a friend because they listen. So thank you, friends, for taking the time to listen to inspiration and let me know you are there and that you care.  I needed that today more than you will ever know. I always want to be that friend.  I want to be the one who listens to a prompting and helps someone else out.  But often I ignore it.  I thinki that someone else can help them and that I am probably not the person they need anyway.  It all stems from my horridly low self-esteem.  And I KNOW that.  But it doesn't make it any easier to overcome. I am grateful for people who accept me as I am.  I am grateful for those who aren't trying to fix me.  Trust me, I am doing enough of that for everyone...

I am sure you all have picked up on this, but lately I have felt like my life was going nowhere.  I have been in college for EVER and yet don't date, don't really do anything other than school and Divine Comedy. Well, my New Years Resolution is to "do what works for me".  I am going to take time every day to find the little things that make me happy.  I am going to have more gratitude for my small successes.  and I am going to celebrate the big ones. I don't know how much you know of my life story, but suffice it to say that since fall of 2010, my health has not been great.  It is really hard to feel good about life when you don't feel good about your body.  It is even worse when the things you are doing to "make things better" just end up making you feel worse about yourself. Well, I am done.  I stopped taking medicine to help my stomach function back before Thanksgiving.  I don't know what the next chapter of my health saga will hold, but...