My latest "mistake"
As you all already read, my life has felt pretty blech since fall started.
So tonight I decided to do something about it!
I texted my roommate (because she is never home and when she is she just skypes her bf) to ask her to simply close the blinds so I can sleep. I haven't heard back yet, but since passive aggression is up her alley, I am sure that this will be fantastic.
THEN I posted on my ward's facebook page about how I feel like the two new buildings (aka me) that got added to our ward needed a little fellowshipping. I figured that most of the ward would know what this meant since they talk about their mission experiences all the time.
Apparently this was "wrong". I started an epic facebook battle about how their ward is already so inclusive, and shouldn't I just show up at activities and feel included because life is full of rainbows and sunshine.
Guess what guys, all I want is FELLOWSHIPPING. You know, that thing you did as a missionary where you made sure that if you were bringing someone new to church that you helped them have a ride with someone, or had a family in mind that they could sit with. I remember how hard it could be because you didn't really know everyone's personalities well, you didn't know if they would mesh, and hardest of all you didn't know if your investigator would even show up.
Well, now I am that investigator. I am on the brink of going to some other ward (it is Provo, there are like 6 wards that all meet at the same time in the same BUILDING as us, so it won't be that hard.) I don't feel welcomed or even wanted. I was given some random, it takes a paragraph to make the title of your calling, calling, THREE weeks ago. Have I heard anything about this calling since then? No. When i went to get set apart, guess what I was told? "sorry, we can't do that for you today." Yeah, because I have so much time to try to stop by and get set apart later.
Guys, how do I stop feeling so left out of my ward? How do I start to feel like waiting a year to graduate was the best idea? More than that, how do i get my roommate to freaking like me so I am no longer worried that she is going to kill me in my sleep?
All these dilemmas and more and it is only TUESDAY. Someone shoot me now.
So tonight I decided to do something about it!
I texted my roommate (because she is never home and when she is she just skypes her bf) to ask her to simply close the blinds so I can sleep. I haven't heard back yet, but since passive aggression is up her alley, I am sure that this will be fantastic.
THEN I posted on my ward's facebook page about how I feel like the two new buildings (aka me) that got added to our ward needed a little fellowshipping. I figured that most of the ward would know what this meant since they talk about their mission experiences all the time.
Apparently this was "wrong". I started an epic facebook battle about how their ward is already so inclusive, and shouldn't I just show up at activities and feel included because life is full of rainbows and sunshine.
Guess what guys, all I want is FELLOWSHIPPING. You know, that thing you did as a missionary where you made sure that if you were bringing someone new to church that you helped them have a ride with someone, or had a family in mind that they could sit with. I remember how hard it could be because you didn't really know everyone's personalities well, you didn't know if they would mesh, and hardest of all you didn't know if your investigator would even show up.
Well, now I am that investigator. I am on the brink of going to some other ward (it is Provo, there are like 6 wards that all meet at the same time in the same BUILDING as us, so it won't be that hard.) I don't feel welcomed or even wanted. I was given some random, it takes a paragraph to make the title of your calling, calling, THREE weeks ago. Have I heard anything about this calling since then? No. When i went to get set apart, guess what I was told? "sorry, we can't do that for you today." Yeah, because I have so much time to try to stop by and get set apart later.
Guys, how do I stop feeling so left out of my ward? How do I start to feel like waiting a year to graduate was the best idea? More than that, how do i get my roommate to freaking like me so I am no longer worried that she is going to kill me in my sleep?
All these dilemmas and more and it is only TUESDAY. Someone shoot me now.
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