Finding Hope: My Story

Sometimes I don't even realize how negative I have let myself become.  I don't think about how often I criticize myself, my living situation, my roommates, friends, family, and random people on the street.  I don't think about how much I hate this or that because it seems to have just become ingrained. And then there are things in life that just knock you over. I had a moment the other day...okayyyy, it was Monday, I'll admit it.  And I stopped and thought to myself "no, seriously, why does ANYONE even like me right now?"  I have become the worst version of myself lately.  I only see the negative in others, I don't see how I can help them, I don't stop to see what I can do to help the situation I am in improve. But that is changing.  I am mending bridges.  I am figuring out how to be more kind and loving.  I am learning to let things go that don't matter...because let's face it they don't matter. More than that I am just letting me ...

I had the amazing opportunity to go on vacation this week.  To california.  And the beach.  Oh how I LOVE the beach. What that meant, though, was that I did a LOT of driving.  And a LOT of thinking.  And I discovered something I want to share with you all. My Aunt J and I were talking one morning about life.  She is blessed to have a loving husband and four rambunctious kids in her life.  We were talking about the differences in my life, her life, and in the lives of those we love.  And I discovered something while talking to her that I wanted to share.  Well...I was TAUGHT something that I wanted to share. This life is not all about getting what we want right now.  We may want a fancy beach house or a nice car.  We may want a husband and babies.  But is that always what we need? I am very sure that the Lord is aware of our wants  as well as our needs.    And He is much more concerned with meeting our ne...