He is So Aware of Me
I have been so overwhelmed lately. I swear all of my teachers got together in a dark room somewhere before the semester started and conspired together to see how they could make my life as miserable as possible. Add on top of that the fact that work has been stressful beyond belief right now (maybe they initiated the dark room gathering?) and I just finished yet another wonderful DC show, and well, I am on explode mode.
And I did explode...yesterday...at work...emotionally...in the middle of a meeting...it was awkward for all of us, don't you even worry about it.
I am not usually a public cryer. I like to go find a dark corner and rant and rage and cry it out. Then I go on in life. But seriously, TWICE this semester I have had a breakdown in the SAME MEETING at work. Coincidence? I think not.
So I did the best thing I could think of. I called my dad, who talked me down off the drop-out-and-start-my-own-freak-show ledge and went and got ice cream. And as it turns out, my sweet tender hearted neighbor now works at the ice cream counter. So not only did I get delicious ice cream, but a hug and kind words of encouragement as well. Then after I was at the library, I ran in to another dear friend, who would not leave me until I promised to let her help me in some way. This went on and on all day. I went from having a bleak outlook to knowing that somehow, I could do it. I could make it through to Wednesday and get everything turned in and studied for. Even this morning, another one of my cute neighbors brought me one of my favoritest things...cheesecake. Seriously, guys, that is love right there.
All of this made me realize that my Heavenly Father is so aware of me. He knows that I am struggling right now to feel like I can finish this semester. He knows that I would love to just be DONE with this thing called school. I am sure that He wants to be here for me, holding me close and letting me know that I can do hard things. But, He can't. And so He is constantly sending loving people in to my life who can.
So, to all you people, thank you for helping me feel like today can be a success.
And I did explode...yesterday...at work...emotionally...in the middle of a meeting...it was awkward for all of us, don't you even worry about it.
I am not usually a public cryer. I like to go find a dark corner and rant and rage and cry it out. Then I go on in life. But seriously, TWICE this semester I have had a breakdown in the SAME MEETING at work. Coincidence? I think not.
So I did the best thing I could think of. I called my dad, who talked me down off the drop-out-and-start-my-own-freak-show ledge and went and got ice cream. And as it turns out, my sweet tender hearted neighbor now works at the ice cream counter. So not only did I get delicious ice cream, but a hug and kind words of encouragement as well. Then after I was at the library, I ran in to another dear friend, who would not leave me until I promised to let her help me in some way. This went on and on all day. I went from having a bleak outlook to knowing that somehow, I could do it. I could make it through to Wednesday and get everything turned in and studied for. Even this morning, another one of my cute neighbors brought me one of my favoritest things...cheesecake. Seriously, guys, that is love right there.
All of this made me realize that my Heavenly Father is so aware of me. He knows that I am struggling right now to feel like I can finish this semester. He knows that I would love to just be DONE with this thing called school. I am sure that He wants to be here for me, holding me close and letting me know that I can do hard things. But, He can't. And so He is constantly sending loving people in to my life who can.
So, to all you people, thank you for helping me feel like today can be a success.
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