Realizations

Do you ever have moments in life where you realize that you needed that slap in the face?

No, no, that sounds too harsh.  Here's what I mean.  Sometimes I forget that God has a bigger plan for me.  That I am not working on MY timetable.  That no matter how much I want my life to be different, to have the white picket fence, the husband, the baby and the "perfect" life, that isn't what is next along my life journey.  Is it along there?  Somewhere, I hope.  But it is not happening today.  Or tomorrow.  Or even next Tuesday.

And so instead of being all down in the dumps because yet another boy just wants to be "friends"(I am really starting to hate it when they say that.)  I am going to be okay with it.  Soon-ish anyway.

Because what he is really saying is that I am amazing enough that he wants me to be in his life.  He values me as a person.  He values my opinions and wants to come seek advice from me.

Is there really any better compliment?

One day I will find that boy who makes my heart skip a beat when I think of him.  He'll send the butterflies a-flutterin' when he kisses my face.  Holding his hand will put me on cloud nine.

But that day is not today.  And slowly, I am seeing that it is okay.  Heavenly Father has big plans for me.  Watch out, peeps.  I am going to take the world by storm.

(P.S.  I would like to thank this video for helping me see the bigger picture...)



Comments

  1. UnknownNovember 14, 2012 at 10:50 AM

    That is a great mindset to have, Megan. I wish that there were something that I could do to help you, and if you think of something, let me know, but I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I know that things will work out for you. It really is on His timetable instead of ours.

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  2. UnknownNovember 14, 2012 at 12:04 PM

    This is an incredible post! You should read the one I posted today because we have really similar themes. I love you. You truly are so amazing and I'm glad you're realizing that!

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  3. AdorablemamaNovember 14, 2012 at 12:50 PM

    Hi Sweetie, you sure brought back memories for me. Not all happy ones. Not to get off on a tangent but I'm going to get off on a tangent. ;o) You know when it comes to men (I hope yer dating men and not boys...the boys can't take it ;o) They are a little trickier than it appears at first glance. I was like you, I was so clear on what I wanted, but that fact seemed to almost make it harder to find someone to go down that road with me. See, "they" want to maintain the illusion that they are doing the picking, or the hunting. It's in their psychology. The best thing you can do is to become passionately interested in something else, anything else. We put off these vibes that they actually matter to us and that messes things up. I was in the same boat for a long time. As far as Jose goes, I turned him down for 6 months before I consented to get serious. We went out a couple of times in there but I was very reluctant. I recently found this lady Rori Raye who talks about the very subtle ways we present ourselves and how to attract men instead of us doing the work that they should be doing. The stuff she sells is way too expensive but if you sign up for her newsletter you can get enough info to change yer vibe. Let me know if it works. ;o)

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